Tahun Baru 2010

Tahun 2009 telah menutup tirainya 2 hari yang lalu. Manakala tahun 2010 telah memulakan langkahnya 1 hari yang lalu. Rasanya tidak perlulah bagiku untuk terus menerus menulis blog dalam English semata-mata, mungkin bahasa Melayu lebih selesa dibaca dan difahami.

Tidak perlu juga mahu merenung ke tahun 2009, tahun yang penuh pancaroba, suka-duka, pahit manis yang menuntut pengorbanan yang tidak terhingga dari segi masa, wang dan penat lelahku. Peranan sebagai seorang insan, suami, ayah, penjawat awam, peniaga, anak dll bersatu dalam diri ini. Untuk membuat yang terbaik untuk satu-satu peranan itu terpaksa mengorbankan komitmen terhadap peranan lain, kadang-kadang dapat kurasakan bebanannya sangat kuat

Selamat Tahun Baru Cina

Hampir 2 tahun tidak post apa2 dalam blog ini,sebenarnya tiada apa jugak yang ingin disampaikan selain mengungkapkan beberapa ucapan:

1. "Happy Chinese Lunar Year". Tahun berapa dalam tahun Cina, saya tidak tahu.
2. Selamat sukses kepada 2 pemain Chelsea yang baru dibeli pada 1 Februari lalu iaitu Fernando Torres dan David Luiz.
3. Selamat sukses juga kepada adik perempuan kesayangan yang telah menunjukkan sikap yang sebenar kepada saya dan isteri saya sebentar tadi.....

P/S: First time guna Bahasa Melayu dalam blog ni, yang penting boleh faham jugak kan. :)

Busy Monday!

Monday started by a phone ring from my sweetheart. It was 7.20am! Gosh, time was incredibly goes fast! I rushed to bathe and went to PKK. Had breakfast of Nescafe tarik ice (as usual) and pau. Took the bumiputera certificate from PKK office and made a pit stop at the office to photocopy the cert. The moment the cert has reached my hands, I feel relieved. At least all the pain of trying to satisfy all the criterias required to renew the license registration has gone away..

Then again rushed to Tuaran to join the briefing for the C Class Tender as well as a site visit. I still felt how fast I was of trying to reach to the JKR Office, yet I got lost. Bummer. But luckily I made my way as I asked some local for directions. Although late, I made it there. After filling up the form and listened to the briefing, went to this so-called Laputong Village with several other C Class PKK Contractors to have a site visit. After that, rushed again to JKR HQ at Sembulan Road. As I came and asked somebody at the counter about buying the tender, they simply said that the tender forms weren't ready till tomorrow. So I guess I should be there again tomorrow. What a waste of time! Ate lunch at Rohayu Cafe near Sembulan, the belacan was very delicious and spicy wooo I tell you!!! Spent RM 6 on the food and drink, I gave RM 10 and the cashier returned the balance. While eating, I noticed this homeless man standing and wondering about. Pity him, as his hair were very long he had make it swindle. Looked like a bee's nest, only it was black colour. On my way out, I honked and he came to me. I gave him the money balance of food budget and said "Untuk Makan Ya", he took it but said nothing. Just a quick nod. Whatever... My intentions are sincere though.

After that, parked at Wawasan Plaza and worked on the company profile at MISB Office till evening. Then fetch up Dad at KKIA Terminal 2 and went back to the office again to pick up Bdee. Next went to poli to had Fariza signed some documents. Then drove myself back home. Took dinner outside and back home again. Saw electricity bill at the mailbox outside, checked to be found current bill just RM 47.50. Compared to last month a whopping RM 24+, the current amount was just more than 1/5 from last month figure. Well, it was easy to figure out why. I wa just me here alone in this house for most of the time.

Finally, here I am, finishing up what I've been through today...

I noticed this post were more like a diary entry, but to heck with it. At least some people know (although most don't bother to know but I want them to know anyway!) about what happened to me today. And i think i would keep on doing this till had no time. God I missed my wife and my daughter so much.... I hope I'll see them soon......

Sunday Yesterday

It was another Sunday, slow to pass through and absolutely boring. Woke up around 8 A.M., my wife called to say good morning and thanked the medication I've sent her a day before. Washed my SAA4800T and polished it. Did laundry and such.

Went to the office to work out on the company profile but I forgot to bring the CIDB certificate to get scanned, it was really important yet I left it at home. So pathetic. I did some magic to work about on the Acer PC at the office though, but after checked the DVD Writer it was confirmed to spoil and need to be replaced. On the way to the office, filled my stomach with Pataya rice and Nescafe tarik.

Wondered about in the showroom and thought for some improvements that need to be considered. For example we need a rack to exhibit the gutter samples neatly. And the samples should be tagged so that they can be easy for us to be identified and the customers to pick. I cannot deny this feeling of ideas pouring out in order to improve the company work flow and smooth the operation made me quite excited. But there's a lot of things that need to be think about and to be done for.

And the weather was cloudy since morning, but on the afternoon things were so wet I couldn't see while driving on the way to the office. About 3 hours later, things get clearer.

Aroung 6 PM, made it home. Some time late at night, I watched our wedding recording again. I can feel the feeling at the first lafaz and when Mom kissed me in the cheek and started weeping. Don't know why this heart became weak and nearly can't control my emotion. Luckily almost no one saw my tears although my wife tried to see whats really happening between Mom and I. I can't describe that feeling, but it was more like a feeling of happyness plus tears.

Enough for today, need to work out on the company profile again. P/S: There are works need to be done.

Another Blogger Has Emerged, MoFaz now blogs!

Here I am, alone in the room. Without my love and my life. Thinking about tomorrow, thinking about the day after that, thinking about the future.

I missed my love and my life so much, but I know they are safe and sound somewhere up there. I wish I could be there now with them. But I can't, so sad.

Yes, thinking again and again whether this decision of mine could meant to be really wise or otherwise. It's my career that I'm talking about, a minute before writing that historic letter, things were good. A minute after that proven to be disastrous. I became weak, I don't know why.

Knowing that when the letter is taken into attention, things would be of point of no return. I can't pull back, I must move forward. For those who know me, they would understand this. Especially my love, instead she told me that whatever I decide she will always support. God! This is hurting me inside!...

I hope this is a good decision. Until then, nobody knows. I wonder.....